Life has changed quite a bit since the little munchkin arrived. Most everybody said it would, but no one could have prepared me for the sheer magnitude of change coming my way.
Did I ever mention that I hate change?
Oh well, life has been GREAT the last 8 months. And a little rocky. I've been trying to figure out what I'm doing, when I'm supposed to do it, and how it's going to get done...for the last 8 months...it's tiring just thinking about all the thinking I've been doing.
A few things that haven't been getting done: blogging, running, showing up at races, cleaning my house, spending time with my husband without talking about A) work or B) how I can't get anything done.
A few things that have been getting done: teaching a cute little baby how to eat, speak, roll over, crawl (that one hasn't happened yet), be a good citizen, and how to smile at everyone she meets; jogging (which is different then running); changing poopy diapers; and on occasion, making sure my husband has breakfast and/or lunch and/or dinner.
I've finally decided that I'm not super-woman...despite what I've led you to believe...I just can't do it all...and do it all to my high standards. And I'm willing to compromise on doing things, but not willing to compromise doing them all the way, and right, on the first try.
So, what I have I done to become less Super-Womanish?
I hired a cleaning service. As I type I can smell the fresh, fresh scent of a clean house wafting it's way to the basement. I love to clean, don't get me wrong, but if I can't do it all - the right way - then I'd just assume farm it out to someone who wants to get paid to do it the right way.
I emailed the Track Club and told them I didn't want to be the Treasurer anymore after this year. I've already received one email pleading with me to change my mind. I figured that would happen...I'm just that good...okay, maybe not that "good"...maybe more like "no one else wants the job." Which is funny to me because honestly, it's the easiest job in the world (and I'm not just saying that because I want a replacement.) I mean, really, it's writing checks - making deposits - and entering it all into Quickbooks. There are the budgets, but they are just based on the prior year, so really it's just plugging numbers in on a spreadsheet. The most time consuming task is the annual tax return...again, just plugging numbers. So, that was my sales pitch. I hope it works on someone because after three years of doing this, I'm ready to move on!
I've decided to stop worrying about how many miles I rack up this year, how fast (0r slow) I run, and how many races I attend. I just don't care about all of that anymore (I know...gasp!). I'm having fun training for this marathon with my brother. It will be his first and it's exciting to see him excited about it. I remember that excitement for the first marathon like it was yesterday. I wish every race felt like that! Unfortunately, I'm not able to keep up with our rigorous training schedule. Some days Brenna will nap and I can get a run in, and others...well, it just doesn't happen. I'm tired of beating myself up about it and just run when I can, at the pace that feels comfortable, and just enjoy the run.
I thought about giving up this blog. And I'm not totally over the fence on that one. Seeing as how I'm not participating with Team POD anymore, how I'm not really running anything extraordinary, and how I just really could care less for having a competitive spirit...well, all of that leaves little to blog about.
Our business is busy - we hired two new people just last week. That's a great thing...but we are still busy and the business will always be time consuming - that's the nature of working for yourself. And I'm totally okay with that. I like to work hard. There is nothing in that arena that I want to, or need to, give up.
I'm just ready to move on to new things in my life...with my family...making lasting memories by spending quality time together...all three of us...I'm ready to stop making every day so dang busy. I guess, for lack of a less cheesy term, I'm happy that this is an end of one era of my life!