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April 26, 2010

I'M NOT A GOOD SECRET KEEPER

I never have been, and I'm doubting that at almost 34 years of age, I ever will be. Now don't get me wrong - if you tell me a secret, mums the word! But, if I have a secret about myself...well...it's not kept secret for very long. I've been that way my entire life...my mother used to say "telephone - telegraph - teleAmy." I just talked alot as a kid...and now even as an adult I find it hard to just be quiet.

At any rate, yesterday I was laying in bed thinking about this blog post. What was I going to say? How was I going to say it? I began to think about why people hold this type of secret. I know for most it's because if something were to happen they would not want to face everyone's questions, consoling, and general chatter about said situation. And I thought about me: I'm not afraid to talk about anything, even if it is going to hurt. I also thought about crying. If the secret got out, but then didn't come true would I cry every time someone talked about it?

Let me back up a minute. When I was a kid, I was CRYER. I cried about everything from my hair, to my mean sister, to the way some boy looked at me, to my mean brother, to the way my hair looked (the disposition of my hair always seemed to turn on the water works.) Something happened in my mid to late 20's. I finally realized that crying was not going to change a single thing about my situation....my hair would still look awful regardless of how much crying I did. I finally learned to grow up, take matters into my own hands, and fix the things that needed fixing (including the mop on my noggin.) As a matter of fact, Troy has seen me cry twice in the last five years - once when he asked me to marry him (at that time he had NEVER seen me cry so he thought something was wrong) and once when the combination of wedding planning-work-grad school-studying for the CPA exam just got the best of me.

I was thinking about all of this and how it would intertwine itself into a blog post, while I was still lying in bed.

And then I got my lazy carcass up and went to church.

To my amazement, our pastor spoke on Revelations 7:13 -

For the Lamb which is in the midst of the throne shall feed them, and shall lead them unto living fountains of waters: and God shall wipe away all tears from their eyes.

And it hit me like a ton of bricks. I need not worry about spilling the beans and then being sad if something happens - because for whatever tears I may have, will be wiped away by the hand of God.

So there.

I'm pregnant.

And I (we) couldn't be happier about it!!! It's our first so we are just super-excited about it all! Okay, maybe not "about it all"...but take away the body morphing, the sleepless nights (which I'm already experiencing), and the mood swings (which contrary to what my mother will tell you, have not begun.)

Another side note about the pastor: I saw him in a department store a month or so ago and he was inquiring about my running - I told him that it pretty much sucked and I wasn't sure why. He looked at me and told me it was my body's way of getting ready for a baby. I thought he was crazy, at the time, but I guess he knew what he was talking about because I was actually pregnant when he told me that!

Now, as for running...well....I have discovered that I'm not Paula Radcliffe (shocking, huh?)...While I've not been maintaining any sort of super-sonic speed, or even mileage worth talking about, I have been maintaining a pseudo-run schedule that RC is still in charge of. Of course, my on pace strides have been replaced with "bun in the oven strides" and my new easy pace has creeped back up to my old easy pace. But, I'm running "singing in the rain" paces these days and loving every minute of it. My goal is to walk 1 mile and run 3 everyday. If I can accomplish that, well, then I will consider myself lucky!

So, there...now that my little secret is out I can finally go back to blogging on a regular basis!

12 comments:

Krista said...

Hey Amy,
I just checked out your running blog. you are a great writer and I enjoyed your stories! Keep it up!--that is the running and the writing.

Amber said...

Congratulations! Good for you for trying to run while pregnant. I stopped when I found out I was pregnant last April and it's very hard to get back into after not running for several months. With my first I did walk every day so it was a lot easier than this time around when I did nothing.

Char said...

Congratulations! I hope you have a wonderfully smooth pregnancy followed by an equally smooth labour. The next few months are going to be exciting and scary and life-changing bu oh so worth it.

Firefly's Running said...

Congrads!!

Andrew - "Tighurt" said...

Congratulations, Amy! What a delightful surprise! I even "unlurked" for the occasion.

Anne said...

Congratulations to you and Troy. I'm so happy for you both! I couldn't run during my pregnancies, much as I tried. But I became a great walker right up to the end. I hope everything goes smoothly over the next half year. Again - major high five, girl!

Laura Lohr : My Beautiful Life said...

CONGRATULATIONS! That is awesome!

I ran up to the 6th month, albeit, very slowly. It got tougher to run as I got bigger. My "running" was just a bit faster than a walk the last month I tried to keep it up.

Good luck, many happy thoughts, and best wishes! Yeah!

Stefanie said...

WOOO HOOOO A baby Tarpley!!! I am soo excited! When you said a bit announcement, I figured you and Troy were starting another business. This is way better! CONGRATS

Anonymous said...

I had lunch with Jarred on Monday and he told me that story...awesome!
Blessings on you, Troy and Baby Tarpley, by the way, the name Sam is always a winner.

Sam Alderman

Debbie Blankenship said...

Congratulations! What a blessing! I was able to keep up the running and riding until I was about 4 1/2-5 months along. That coincided with my belly starting to pop and summer in Macon! I got to where I was just getting too overheated and had to stick to walking and/or the gym. Of course, I was probably a bit cautious as my doc said I could do whatever I wanted as long as I felt ok. Congratulations again! Oh and the running came back pretty quickly after baby was here, well quickly as in back to my old level and not quick as in fast. ;)

Anonymous said...

Hi Amy,

I was thinking recently that I hadn't seen you at the races that I've run. Congratulations on your pregnancy! There's nothing more special than a baby!! I'm so happy for you!
Allyson Day

Anonymous said...

Hi. I ran across your blog awhile ago & enjoy reading your posts. I'm a semi-runner...done a couple half & full marathons but still haven't fully dedicated myself to the sport (which really means I've been too lazy to get out & run/train consistently!). Just wanted to say congratulations on the pregnancy!

Jen/San Diego