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November 05, 2007

MOTIVATION TO BE DONE

For the last few months I have really been on my own case about not getting stuff done, whether it's running or the mounds of laundry piling up. I've just felt like one of those hamsters on the wheel (or is it gerbils? or is it both?)

For some reason this week it has totally dawned on me that I'm just not going to be able to live my life exactly the way I want to.

Well, not for 6 more months anyway. I have finally sucumb to the fact that school is really what rules my life, and well, it's not letting anything get in it's way. Even when I want it to. Even when I take a test that I didn't study for. Even when I get my entire class out of taking a quiz (you guys can totally thank me later). It's not letting anyone or anything stand in it's way.

And finally, this week...10 months into this whole ordeal, I have finally made peace with all of it. I'm not sure why it decided to happen now. But, now, I can actually see the end. That my life won't be this crazy, scary world where I just go and go and go and then fall asleep to just get up and go and go and go again. That sometime the first week of May 2008 I will be free. I will go to work everyday and leave everyday to do exactly what I want to. And nothing more.

Maybe it's because I had an awesome massage on Saturday.

Or maybe it's because I just registered for the last 3 classes I plan to take. Ever. In my life ever. For real. And yes, I'm working full-time AND taking 3 classes.

Because I'm crazy like that.

And because I want to be done.

And nothing more.

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On the running front, I'm running the Jay's Hope 10k this weekend. It's my time to redeem myself on the poor performance of the Jim Herrin 10k I ran this summer. And that makes me excited.

I'm also running a 5k with my brother on the 17th. I'm super excited about this because he and I have never run together before. Troy is on baby-sitting/teaching-kids-how-to-be-great-race-spectators duty. It will be neat to see my brothers kids watch him cross the finish line. That makes me happy.

Have a great week!

5 comments:

miss petite america said...

i feel like you've been in school forever! it must feel so freakin' awesome to see the light at the end of the tunnel! all your hard work! whoo!

Kurt said...

Good luck on the race and I am sure you will do great.

I am planning on making you do your things your behind but you will have to remind me tomorrow. As I say us procrastinators will unite tomorrow!

Firefly's Running said...

It will get better and the goal will be bittersweet at the end. Hang in there.

Good luck on the race this week.

Laura Lohr : My Beautiful Life said...

Congratulations on being close to the end of school. What a great feeling to know you are almost done.

I am glad you are giving yourself a break. Working full-time, going to school, AND PLANNING A WEDDING are tough (I did it too some 5 years and I thought I was going to lose my ever-loving mind!)

Good luck on the race! I am sure you will do great! :)

Christy said...

I remember the feeling near the end of school when I got my masters...what a great feeling. Good Luck!!