POST RACE REPORT: LOOKING FROM THE OTHER SIDE
So, the race went really really well I thought. I had 21 runners and walkers and was able to give medals to 10 of the 21. It was super organized (as I am all of the time....) and all my volunteers showed up ready and willing to help. There were a few snafoos, as to be expected. One (the biggest) was the walker awards. They gave them last year, so I thought I would continue the tradition...in hindsight I should have just kept the awards to 1st, 2nd, etc. Well, it turned out that the two ladies that I gave the two walker awards to, actually ran/walked. And, of course, the lady who really walked the entire route (who was about 30 seconds behind them) was mad. It took all 3 of them 47 minutes so how was I supposed to know that they ran most of the way? Troy had a good solution to this problem for next year though: Give the typical awards for runners and give another set of awards for skippers. His logic is that no one can mistake skipping for runninng or walking. Come to think of it he has a point! The only other snafoo was that I was not notified about this race until a few weeks ago so publicity was limited. Had I had another few weeks, I'm sure that I could have had a better turnout. But, all in all, it was a good day for running a 5k.
In this months issue of RW (sorry, can't quote the exact page...the magazine is in its final resting place....Troys bathroom...and well, once it makes it there I don't touch it anymore :), anyway, there is an article about running and thinking positive thoughts, moving from one positive thought to another. I decided to give this a try on my 5 mile run last night (and yes, I finally ran more than 3 miles....more on that later). So, around 7:30 (hearting DST) I set out with out my trusty mp3 player and just my list of positive thoughts. It all started very innocently, something like this:
1st qtr to half mile: "If T and I got married, would I drop my middle name and keep my last name, or would I get rid of the last name and just keep my middle and his last? I really like both my middle and my last name....hyphenating is out of the question....I could have 4 names...*rehearsing over and over Amy C____ G____ T_____* wow that's a mouthful...oh, wait why am I even worrying about this now? He hasn't even asked me...he might not....oh wait...unpositive thoughts...NEXT"
around 1/2 mile to 1 mile: running past a mom with 4 small children....one of which sticks his 3 year old head out of the stroller and says "whatcha doin?"....back to happy thoughts about how cute little kids are...I say "runnin" and keep on going thinkinig maybe I'd like to have one of those one day...is this positive thought or negative...hard to tell...NEXT
mile 1 to 2: "i'm making chicken florentine tonight and i've already done all the prep work so i don't have to do anything except stick it in the oven when i got home...i love how organized i am...i love to cook...i love food...i love food that is good for me..."
mile 2 to 4: "i have so much to be thankful for...great job, great boyfriend, great financial situation, great brain, great organization skills, great family (sometimes), great life. *insert conversation with God about how thankful I am* I really have no reason to gripe or complain...i've got 2 legs that let me run, i've great running clothes, i've great clothes period....NEXT"
around mile 4: run into family of 4 again...this time little boys says "i know what you doin...you exercisin!" Back to happy thoughts about little kids and how dang cute they are.
MY 1ST 5 MILER...IN A WHILE
I've got my training schedule for B2R started and have been pretty successful this week and staying on task. Considering that I've only had a 3 miler on Tuesday and a 5 miler scheduled last night...so far so good!
I'm not sure what happened last night...whether it was the positive thoughts or the sheer exhiliration of actually training again, but something made this run extra extra good. It was one of the best runs I've had in a while. My legs felt strong again and they felt like they could go forever! I never once thought about cutting it short (even when it looked like it was going to start raining and even when it started to get dark).
I'm not sure what happened, but whatever it was, I'm glad it happened. It made me remember that feeling that I used to have after running 15 miles on a Saturday morning. That looking-forward-to-everything-is-going-to-be-okay feeling. It made me happy to be training again. It made me happy to be out there.
RUNNING VS WALKING
Since I broke my foot last year, I've been running for 1 mile and walking for 1 minute. I decided last week that when I begin B2R training I would 86 the walk and go back to complete and solid running. Of course I would build up each week running 2 miles solid, then 3, etc. But something happened last night. I just felt this overwhelming urge to not try and do that. I started thinking about the reasons that I am running and reasons that I am not running. And it all boiled down to this:
I'm running to be healthy and active and have a hobby that makes me feel good. I want running to always be fun and never feel like its work. I don't want running to be my job. At 30 years old, I will never be a super star athlete. And I'm okay with that. I'm just happy being out there. With all of you guys. And even when I was walking, I was still getting faster. I'm still getting faster. And I DON'T want to go through what I went through last year. Being in a cast TWICE IN ONE YEAR was not fun. It made running not so much fun. So, who do I have to prove something to? No one. Who cares if for every mile I run, I walk for a minute? No one. What do I care about? The fact that I can and have run 26.2 miles. The fact that I can make it to the finish line injury free. The fact that I know I can do this and I love every minute of it.
So, there you have it. (note: i'll still be running my 5ks solid, but for training purposes, it's back to the run/walk thang).